Tuesday, January 22, 2013

It's Not Working

  We ordered 3 new curriculums and a video series to help with teaching the children Self-Government.  The curriculum is here, but we are still waiting on the video series.  After a few years of trying to do things on my own, Pete and I have realized that due to the amount of special needs in our home, we needed something where a lot of the leg work had been done for us.  I had been planning my own "lessons" to teach the children and generally flying by the seat of my pants, and that isn't working anymore.  So...we have Latter Day Learning's The Family School.  We have Spalding's The Writing Road To Reading.  We have Math U See...and we have Nicholeen Peck's Teaching Self Government Implementation Vidoes on their way.  Sounds great, right?!  It's not working.  We haven't even begun, really...but already it's not working.  Our family is what Nicholeen Peck would call, "in crisis."  When I can't reasonably expect my children to wake up at a reasonable hour, do their morning basics (make bed, say prayers, brush teeth, wash face and/or bathe, get dressed and tidy their room) and come to breakfast on time...it throws our day into immediate chaos.  I have kids coming to breakfast saying that their basics are done, who throw temper tantrums when upon checking, I exclaim "No they're not!", and then send them off to complete their basics.  They don't complete them however...they play, lay on the floor, throw things around...do nothing.  ARGHHHHH!  It's driving me batty!

  So...I had planned to start all of our new curriculum in January.  Guess what?  That's not happening.  I am having to learn to be okay with doing things when it's right for our family, instead of when everyone else is doing them.  It's frustrating, but it has to be that way.  My kids desperately need job training.  They desperately need to learn to govern themselves.  They need a vision for why they would want to govern themselves appropriately.  I often wonder if most parents ever realize how many things kids need to know how to do, before education can take place.  Every movie we own, except for church movies, has been put away in a box in the garage.  This has been my "go to" kid sitter when an important phone call comes in, or when I have a meeting in my home, and I need kiddos to sit quietly.  No more!  Pete has been slowly getting our giant back yard ready for the kids to play in it safely.  (We just had our gorgeous Mesquite trees chopped to the ground and the wood taken away, because they were dropping terrible thorns that would do through shoes.)  He has planted fruit trees and mapped out our garden, which we hope to get going in the Spring. I would LOVE for the children to be able to learn from our garden...to be able to work in it and watch it grow and eat from it!  There are so many cool things I'd like for them to learn...but we can't get past getting out of bed on time.   

  I am discouraged!  I need order!  I need a routine!  I need a schedule!  I need one that WORKS!  I'm planning another prayer walk....you know, when I take a walk and pray out loud, basically looking like a crazy person, but talking to my Heavenly Father, telling Him what I think I need, and then listening while He tells me what I really need.  Yeah...I need one of those!  I know He can tell me the answers that I need.  I just need to ask Him.

  Have you ever felt like you have so much on your mind that your head might just explode?!  That's me right now!  Everyone says, "Just get rid of the extra's you are doing, that you don't need to do anymore."  I don't have any extra's.  Okay...Facebook is my only extra.  But that's phasing out by itself, because I just don't care about it as much as I used to.  Everything else that takes up my time, is stuff that I have no choice about.  What's a girl to do?!  I desperately need to re-read my TJEd books.  I haven't read them in so long, that I hardly feel right calling this blog Ramblings of a TJEd Mom...because I'm not really a TJEd mom anymore.  I need to re-fresh my Leadership Education batteries.  I desperately need to learn Teaching Self Government like the back of my hand, so I can properly teach my children.  I need to establish what priveleges are for them.  Does that sound like the dumbest thing you've ever heard?!  I need to understand the 4 Basic Skills frontwards and backwards, so that when I'm engaging with my kids, I follow the steps properly.  I need to take time for my own education!  HA!  That makes me laugh.  Why??? Because I don't have any extra time for anything! 

  I need to make freezer meals!  I need to follow the menu's and shopping lists that I worked so hard to create!  I need to make green smoothie's for lunch everyday!  I need to make bread on a regular basis!  I need to use my crockpot for supper more often!  I need to figure out how to get my kids doing their own laundry! (At least the oldest 3.)  I need to read my scriptures daily.  I need to write on this blog more!  I need be inspired about my family!  Stay Tuned!